I'm losing my motivation to keep on keepin' on. I'm tired, and my hope is getting a little banged up and dusty. I'm starting to get swamped with all that I have to do, and yet I can hardly say that I'm doing this all on my own. I feel dependant, and lacking in too many ways tonight. I wish I would lay down in my bed and it would swallow me whole for at least a week. I wish I was more, better, faster, stronger, (is that a song??), and not alone, and not in debt. Blech.