WARNING:
If you are a family member you may not want to read this post as it may contain TMI (too much information) Remember - this is my blog. This is the one where I let it all out. If you want to read about my family's daily happenings - the more G to PG rated stuff then stop here and go to the other blog posted there on the side. This is my blog and my new life and I've decided to be less inhibited, less private, less proper. This could very well be the new me. I don't want to hear about whether or not you agree with my take on things - especially the following things!
I have a new BFF. She's my CBFF. My Celibate BFF. She's LDS too and in an even bigger predicament than me in that she actually has a new man right in front of her and is being as good as humanly possible. Divorced Mormon women - the ones who hang on to their values for dear life - are some of the toughest, strong-willed people on this planet. The only ones who beat them out is the men, because let's face facts here - they are men!
I've tried it all. I've cut out ALL TV programs except for Survivor. That includes Grey's and Private Practice people!! McSteamy! McDreamy! AHHH!!!! I have no radio on in the car. I have freaking classical music on my other blog for the very reason being that everything makes me think, or want, or miss "IT". I miss it all. I miss even just the touch of a man. Hand on the small of my back, hand in my hair, holding hands, hands and arms holding me close and everything else further down that line. Actually, what I can't get out of my head is a pair of man hands that grab the sides of my ribs to pull me close and then slide around to my back to hold me there. I think about that one all. the. time.
I've been chewing gum like someone trying to kick a smoking addiction just to keep my mouth busy because when it's not, either my jaw is clenched or the tip of my tongue tingles reminding me of kisses that I want to share so bad it's making me crazy!!!
I don't miss it with him - in fact quite the opposite. But the hope that there had so better be someone better is making me seriously come out of my skin!! You know it's bad when you are walking by the cheesecake display case in the Cheesecake Cafe and at first glance you think the Callibeaut Chocolate Cheesecake actually read Celibate Chocolate Cheesecake. True story. And that is the one I picked out (once I stopped to read the little sign again. Fabulous btw).
Quiting cold turkey sucks you guys!! You don't even know! Unless of course you do and then Hello! You get it!! I look at some of these single women in church who have been married before and they have been single for umpteen years and I just don't know if I have it in me to go that long!! I'm amazing but still human you know ;)
*SIGH*
And my wait continues..... Aw man!! Haha :)
4 comments:
hahah, the chocolate thing has me laughing with you. WITH you, hun! ;)
We can do this. CBFFs don't give up.
Yeah that's going to be an itch til it gets scratched. You REALLY need to start working out. Let out some of that adrenaline. Maybe by trying to not focus on it at all it's making it worse? Like trying to diet and not eat chocolate at all and then binging on a whole box. Beware the binge! Yeah and some of us have never been able to quit....but that's a whole nother blog now isn't it?
HAHAHAHAH NO BINGING on the whole BOX, hun!!!!!
Oh man... ummm errr, no idea what can cure that itch! AHHH!
But at least you have a CBFF that understands where you are coming from.
Maybe you should take up running.. I've heard people get orgasms from running. (ummm can I say orgasm on this blog? It IS the let-it-all-out blog isn't it?) eeekkkkk!
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