Thursday, November 26, 2009

Again

Arrggh!
It's back!
It's freaking back again! 
What the hell??
The raw hurt, the inablitily to get a full breath, the weight on my shoulders, on the verge of tears, the memories of the begining when it all really started to unravel.
I'm exhausted, drained, and losing my energy to fight anymore.
Not fight him, but fight holding it all together. 
When is it going to end, because really?
I'm almost done.

1 comment:

Debbi said...

oh, hun. It'll end soon. The Lord compensates the faithful for EVERY loss. Every tear you cry now will be 'reimbursed' as equal or greater happiness to come.

Keep going. I know it's hard and lonely and tiring and feels pointless. But keep going.